I've been used, abused, refused and forced to lose
The universe is out to get me and I can prove it
People hurt me, tear at my giving heart unfairly
The search for happiness is never really earnest
Yes, it is puzzling that most do not relish living
They put a noose around their neck voluntarily
Wishing for this, hoping for that, ignoring...
The marvels along the way on this journey
Seven billion souls exist on this planet but
How many truly live? And am I one of them?
If not, why? This life is a flash in eternity
I need to remember that at all times-will I?
The Weary Blues
Droning a drowsy syncopated tune, Rocking back and forth to a mellow croon, I heard a Negro play. Down on Lenox Avenue the other night By the pale dull pallor of an old gas light He did a lazy sway .... He did a lazy sway .... To the tune o' those Weary Blues.
With his ebony hands on each ivory key He made that poor piano moan with melody. O Blues! Swaying to and fro on his rickety stool He played that sad raggy tune like a musical fool. Sweet Blues! Coming from a black man's soul.
O Blues! In a deep song voice with a melancholy tone I heard that Negro sing, that old piano moan-- "Ain't got nobody in all this world, Ain't got nobody but ma self. I's gwine to quit ma frownin' And put ma troubles on the shelf."
Thump, thump, thump, went his foot on the floor. He played a few chords then he sang some more-- "I got the Weary Blues And I can't be satisfied. Got the Weary Blues And can't be satisfied--
I ain't happy no mo' And I wish that I had died." And far into the night he crooned that tune. The stars went out and so did the moon. The singer stopped playing and went to bed While the Weary Blues echoed through his head. He slept like a rock or a man that's dead.
Little Willie, always clowning, Was the cause of papa's drowning; Mother patted Willie's back; "Sonny, I look swell in black.”